Dear Former Self...

Dear Former Self, You are 30 and more importantly alive.

I know there were many times in High School, College and even after graduation where you thought about ending it all. Just slipping away because you thought no one would ever notice.

Well, people would have.

So thank you.

Thank you for not taking away the time I now have with the wife, friends, family and the world.

YOU are making a difference.

YOU are now brave enough to share your journey, your happiness, your sadness, your self doubts and your strengths with the masses.

And people appreciate that.

They appreciate you.

And you know what?

You are staring to appreciate yourself as well.

Now, I'm not going to tell you it is all rainbows and unicorns.

Okay - there are some rainbows - I mean you are gay after all. :)

But, seriously ... there is actual joy in your life. There are smiles that aren't forced. There are some serious kick ass accomplishments you are achieving.

Hello! Running The Boston Marathon in less than two weeks. I think we can classify that under Bad Ass and something we NEVER thought would happen.

But it is.

None of this could be happening if you hadn't made that decision in 2009 to walk through the doors of Weight Watchers and change your life forever.

Over the past four years, layers and layers of fat, insecurity, pain, self-doubt and self-loathing have slowly but surely been stripped away. There are little chunks lying around here and there, but they too will be shed over time.

You didn't have to think for all those years that you weren't worthy of true happiness because you were.

Why did you doubt yourself? Why did you put yourself down SO much? Why did you think you were so unworthy of being alive?

I don't know the answers. Maybe over time we will figure them out. But for now, we are happy to be moving past those.

The self-deprecating humor you used for so long as a shield is still here ... but now more out of habit. A habit that we are working on changing. The hatred behind it is lessening.

Someday it will go away completely, but we save that for a letter from our Future Self.

For now, in the current state, things are pretty awesome. Just know that all the pain you went through and held on to for so long is clearing ... it is being released and freed.

The heart is opening to the love of family, friends and even complete strangers you have come to meet - and love - online. The world is embracing you flaws and all and you are FINALLY embracing it back. You are sharing things with people you never thought you would.

And I have to say it feels GOOD.

So former self, thank you again for allowing me to be here ... for allowing me to feel ... for allowing me to live!

Love,

Your Current Self

#30for60 Challenge STARTS TODAY!

I think by now we have all learned I like a good challenge... #plankaday, #100ozchallenge, #pnptrackstar, #7daychip, #30daychip, etc. Obviously it was time to add another one!

Enter the #30for60 challenge created by my girl Samantha from Running and Cupcakes.

Sam first presented this challenge back in December 2011-January 2012, where I happily participated in. Here is the post I wrote halfway through the challenge: read on!

Once I heard Sam was considering bringing it back in preparation of Summer 2013, I HAD to be a part of it ... and Sam graciously agreed to let me pair up with her. YAY! :)

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So here are the details:

The challenge will run from April 1-June 1 and the main just is simple - get moving for 30 minutes a day. This doesn't mean we need to hit the gym for 30 or more minutes a day since like everyone else I like/need a rest day at least once a week. But, we want to motivate people to get out there and get active with friends and families - take a walk, play some soccer in the backyard, have a dance party in the kitchen. Whatever you enjoy doing to get yourself off the couch will count!

Seems pretty simple right?

It is.

We will be tracking everyone's progress on the google spreadsheet I created - #30for60 Tracking - and you can update your stats at any point in time. Each column represents a 5-day period so if you successfully accomplish the challenge 3 out of the 5 days, you would mark a 3 in the column, etc etc.

Make sense?

You want in?

What you need more incentive?

Fine!

***PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES PRIZES***

Did that get your attention? Sam and I have been working to secure some amazing prizes for you all and will be sharing those throughout the next 60 days.

So if you are ready to get up, get moving and get ready for Summer then head on over to the #30for60 Tracking sheet and sign up!

And make sure you use the #30for60 hashtag and mention Sam (@RunCupcake) and I (@IrishEyes1982) up to speed on your progress. Use us as cheerleaders if you need to. (Note: Pom poms not included)

Let's Do This Folks!!

Who's with me?

Weekly Workout Wind Up (3/21-27/13)

Coming at ya with my latest weekly workout wind up...  

Thursday, March 21: 5-Mile Run

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Friday, March 22: Rest Day & Leisurely Walk With Joanna

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Saturday, March 23: 21-Mile Run

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Sunday, March 24: 65-Minute Recovery Spinning Ride

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Monday, March 25: 4.25-Mile Run & 50 Min Spinning Ride

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Tuesday, March 26: REST DAY

Wednesday, March 27: Hill Repeats (1 Mile Warmup, 6xHill, 1 Mile Cooldown)

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I am definitely upping my weight training once I finish the Boston Marathon...

Tedy's Team Group Run - 21 Miles

Since November March 23 was circled on my calendar as THE day of training. Why?

It would be the day I would tackle the final long run of the training and the day I would run 21 miles.

And all of a sudden that day was yesterday.

How the heck did that happen?

But I was ready for it.

Running should be fun right? So I put together a special outfit for the day.

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Do you think I would be spotted on the course at all? :P

I gave Boston-based EnergyBits a try for the first time pre-run and after getting over the algae taste I realized how helpful they truly were!! You are supposed to take 30-40 tabs about 10-15 minutes before you start working out, but I was only to chew about 10 before the taste got to me. Had I had water I could've just swallowed the 30 pills without a problem, but alas I was waterless on the bus. Even with just 10 tablets I felt a difference!

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The Vitatop however led to some stomach discomfort about 15 miles into the run. I love the Vitatops, but I don't think I will have one pre-run again. Poor choice!

The game plan was to meet the other Tedy's Team members and fellow charity runners that leave out of FitCorp each week and get on a bus by 7:30am. Yup, these sweet school busses...

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...and head to Framingham, where we would be dropped off in a parking lot and told to run back to Boston.

Thankfully, they had set up water stops every 2 miles along the course back. Wicked helpful especially for the first 10-12 miles of the run I would have NO idea where we were since I had never run that section of the course before.

We arrived in Framingham, got off the bus and we were off.

I tried to keep myself from going out too fast too soon, but also wanted to make sure I kept myself near other runners since I really had no idea where we were going and I didn't want to get lost so early into the run.

I saw the water stop at Mile Two, but didn't feel like I needed any water just yet ... boy was not stopping a mistake. I missed meeting Tedy Bruschi, who was there to cheer on all of the members of his team.

Yup, I think I'm the only person on the team who missed him. D'oh! Note to self: stop at every water stop from here on out. :P

There were no port-o-potties in sight when I got to Mile Four so I stopped in this cute little breakfast joint where the first older man I saw in there loudly proclaimed: "No running in the diner." He cracked himself up on that one. :) I just hustled in and out so that I didn't lose any of the data on my Garmin.

Thank goodness I stopped when I did since I didn't really see any port-o-potties until we got closer to the city.

It was exciting to be running along the course and in unfamiliar scenery, which helped pass the time.

Plus having water stops every couple of miles just confirmed that I was on the right course. ;)

I even found some new people to run with which was great. They were in the same running group from FitCorp, but are running for different charity teams.

But, it was nice to get lost in conversation instead of worrying about how many miles had passed or how many we had to go!

Before I really knew it, we were halfway there and we knew it was true because we came across the Woodland T stop. The Woodland T stop had been used on previous Saturday long runs. We would take the T from FitCorp to Woodland and run back, which was about 10.8 miles.

So at this point, we hit familiar territory and knew what was coming ... Heartbreak Hill!

But it wasn't that bad. I was able to keep sub 9 min/mile pace while tackling the rolling hills. It didn't hurt that there were a TON of charity teams water stops set up so volunteers were all over Heartbreak cheering people on.

It was a small glimpse of what we will see on race day when it comes to encouragement.

Once we were over the final of the three hills of Heartbreak, we knew we were in the home stretch. But, what you have to love is that the home stretch was the final 5-6 miles back to FitCorp.

You know you are deep into marathon training when you are happy about just 5 or 6 more miles. :P

But right around that time that the stomach pains started to creep in. It was between Mile 15-16 that my stomach started to get REALLY unhappy and I was searching for a bathroom. But unfortunately none to be found as I was caught between two bigger neighborhoods. So I just let Dave and Laura, who I was running with, go on without me and I stopped. I thought if I just waited for a minute it would pass.

Well with no bathrooms in sight, I just pushed on and caught up with Dave at the next water stop. We ended up finishing the run together. As we got to Kenmore Square, we knew we only had about 2 miles to go. But, my Garmin had a different idea. It was telling me we needed at least 3 more miles to get to 21.

So as we neared the final 1/2 mile from FitCorp, we decided to run around and through Boston Common until we hit 21 miles. It was a GREAT decision. The park was a beautiful place to end and we avoided the final hill of Beacon Street. :P

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Aaahhh!! Sub 9 min/mile pace for the training run. Hell Yeah! I couldn't believe it. I think I gave Dave about 4 high fives with excitement!!

The post-run foam rolling never felt so good... maybe it's also because I was on Cloud Nine.

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Once this run was over, I knew I would be okay during the Boston Marathon ... and maybe even get a new marathon PR! :)

I also loved all the compliments I got along the course on my awesome Team Sparkle skirt and Superman socks.

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Should I rock both on Marathon Day?

Let me know your thoughts!!

I came home and immediately refueled with low-fat Chocolate Milk in my Samuel Adams 26.2 Brew mug...

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... before having a nice cold beer (my other after)!

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And look at the mail I came home too.

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It's all getting pretty pretty real!

So now that the 21-miler is behind me, it's taper time. Next week it will be either 10 or 12 miles depending on how I'm feeling that day.

We are T-minus 22 days til the BIG DAY!

Will you be out cheering on the couse on April 15?

Socks, Socks, Socks...

It's funny to be recognized at races by your socks ... but for me it has become a staple. :) And I love it!

I tend to wear the same running tops, singlets and pants at most of the road races I participate in so I tend to let my socks do the talking!

Here are a few of my favorite pairs of socks I've rocked...

BATMAN

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Available Here

CANDY CANE

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Currently Unavailable

POLKA DOTS

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Bought At Target For $2.50

SHAMROCK

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Bought At Target

SUPERMAN

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Available Here

And I just purchased these awesome socks for my Memorial Day races!!

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I can't wait to break them out...

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Do you have any other suggestions of fun socks for me?

How do you make your running outfits stand out?

Weekly Workout Wind Up (3/14-20/13)

My second installment of Weekly Workout Wind Up... Thursday, March 14: 5-Mile Run, 30 Min  Stairmaster and 15 Min Elliptical

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Friday, March 15: 5k Run

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Saturday, March 16: 14-Mile Run

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Sunday, March 17: One Hour Spin

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Monday, March 18: 5-Mile Run

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Tuesday, March 19: Rest Day

Wednesday, March 20: 6x800 speedwork on the treadmill

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How did you sweat this week?

St. Patrick's Day Weekend

Fun! I can sum up this past weekend with just that one word.

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Friday started off with a little treadmill 5k before my monthly weigh-in with Weight Watchers for March and...

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... I was in the free range again! Woo! As a Weight Watchers Lifetime member, you have a 2 lb range on either side of your goal weight to still be Lifetime. So my goal weight is 155, which means I need to weigh-in each month between 153-157 to continue to be a FREE Lifetimer. :) And I like free. Who doesn't?

I led my final two Weight Watchers meetings of the week and then it was WEEKEND TIME!!

I got home from my meetings and was feeling fit so I put together a little side-by-side:

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The pic on the left is from 2008 and the pic on the right is now.

Sometimes, I get so wrapped up in the now that I forget how far I've truly come. Ya know?

After ditching the "work clothes," it was time to get casual and meet my best friend and her daughter for a coffee date. It's funny how quickly a mood can change after an hour or so with one adorable little baby!!

I often wonder if moving back to Boston was the right choice and after an afternoon with my best friend or family ... I know I did.

I had to hit up the liquor store after Kappy's to pick up Slumbrew's latest beer:

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Naked Hopularity!

It was delish (as all their beers are) and I totally recommend it...

While I waited to grab pizza with my parents and wife, I got some wonderful gifts:

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My Omron Fitness HRM thanks to Mamavation

-from my Mom

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The 4-Leaf Clover Alex and Ani Bracelet

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Saturday kicked off with a 14-mile training run for the Boston Marathon. I wanted to sleep in a little so I didn't meet the group in town instead opting to run closer to my house. What I didn't realize was how far I could really get in just 7 miles. :P But, I did it - 7 miles out and 7 miles back - including some time in Davis Square, Somerville, Medford, Cambridge, Arlington and the Minuteman Trail.

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It was nice to have new scenery while running, but I could've done without the head wind. :P

After refueling with low-fat chocolate milk and Dunkin' Donuts Iced Coffee, it was time for date afternoon with the wife. Yay!

We headed back to Davis Square to enjoy a beer and some lunch at Joshua Tree.

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Yummy as usual.

We hit up the local comic book store for the wife and picked up some adult beverages for that night's Game Night before heading out for some much-needed mani-pedis.

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My poor feet and as usual I apologized to the woman ahead of time for my "runner's feet." :P Thankfully I've known this woman since high school so I know she has seen it all.

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Happy Feet!!

There was just enough time to pop by the grocery store and clean the apartment before picking up our Game Night guests.

The wife made Hungry Girl's Orange Chicken and my friend Abby brought a delicious Fruit Salad for dessert before we broke out the Cards Against Humanity ... which I had never played before.

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Wicked fun and inappropriate game that I HIGHLY recommend.

It was great hanging out with my coworker Abby and her boyfriend Justin since we had been trying to set this Game Night up for months, but blizzards, illness and more snow kept getting in our way. Damn you Mother Nature! But now we will surely be making this a monthly event.

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Sunday was my favorite holiday of the year ... EVACUATION DAY!

Okay, that is only a Boston holiday that happens to fall on the same day as St. Patrick's Day.

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Laney was not in the St. Patrick's Day mood. :P

So I broke out the green gear for Spinning class:

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Yes, stickers were involved as well. :)

I didn't have a St. Paddy's Day race so I had to break the socks out somewhere.

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After Spinning, the wife & I did meal planning for the week and hit up the grocery store. Wild and crazy kids on the holiday, I know.

We grabbed some lunch, I did some Weight Watchers work then it was time for a few of my college friends to come over for the evening. I can't believe I've known these girls for about 12 years. Wow!

You know you are all 30 or over when there are dogs and one 2-year old running around. We aren't the party animals we used to be...

It was a fantastic afternoon/evening of great food (fruit salad, regular salad, crock pot chicken and no pudge brownies) and of course a Guinness or two...

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A weekend of fun, love and friends was exactly what I needed. I can't wait to see what next weekend will bring ... oh yeah, a 21-mile run on Saturday! ;)

Boston Marathon Photo Challenge

The Boston Marathon is a mere 32 days away... To many that is just a sentence to me it is about completing something I never thought possible.

I can remember watching my dad run Boston as a bandit during the 100th anniversary year.

(Note: bandit means he ran without an official racebib/number)

I grew up in Boston and on Patriot's Day there were two things everyone did: 1) watched or attended the early morning Red Sox game and 2) watched or attended The Boston Marathon.

And this year I will actually be running in it.

I will proudly wear my Tedy's Team singlet in honor of my grandparents - my Stroke heroes - and accomplish something I've only dreamed of ... hopefully! ;) As long as the temps aren't in the 90s again .... c'mon weather gods!

But, this post isn't about all my emotions about running The Boston Marathon - that post will be coming and I will make sure you all have tissues at the ready.

Today, I want to share an amazing Photo Challenge created by my friend Ty from Seeking Boston Marathon. I have been following Ty's training for Boston on InstagramTwitter and Facebook.

It is the #30DaysToBoston #PhotoChallenge...

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I was so excited about it that when Ty asked for partnership from other blogger's running I jumped right on board.

So the premise is pretty simple - especially if you have taken part in photo challenges before, just snap a pic associated with the subject for that day and post it on any of the social media outlets you have: Instagram, Facebook, Pinterest and Twitter.

Make sure when you post your pic to include the 2 main hashtags - #30DaysToBoston & #PhotoChallenge - as well as the hashtag for the day.

Sound easy? Want in? Just get started on Sunday!

I think this is just the thing to get my excitement over running Boston to grow more than I thought it could. :P

So I will catch you on Instagram, Facebook, Pinterest and Twitter starting on Sunday...

And hey it's St. Patrick's Day so grab a beer while you do it!

That's carboloading, right? :)

Weekly Workout Wind Up (3/7-13/13)

Well it is finally time that I put all of my workouts in one post to make it easier for you all to see what I'm doing and for me to keep my week's straight. :P So let's get this party started...

 

Thursday, March 7: 4 mile Run

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Friday, March 8: Rest Day

 

 

Saturday, March 9: 2 hours of Spinning while at a Spin Instructor Orientation

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Sunday, March 10: 10 mile Run

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Monday. March 11: Ran 6.2+ miles And 45 min Spinning Class

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Tuesday, March 11: 30 min Stairmaster

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Wednesday, March 12: 45 min Tempo Run

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Would you all like me to add my Plankaday Streak to this roundup as well?