For so many years I hid from the mirrors on the walls ... For so many years I hid from the photographs of everything ...
But that all changed - thanks to Weight Watchers!
I even mentioned this in my "Only Human" video for the latest Weight Watchers campaign, which you can check out here:
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When did it really dawn on me that things changed?
Why on Tuesday!
This past weekend the race director (Eddie) for the Cambridge 5k race series asked me to be one of the featured runners for the upcoming inaugural Freedom Run on May 26.
Ahhh someone wanted ME to be in a picture for their race!
Here are a couple of shots from the shoot:
I met Eddie at City Sports in Downtown Crossing and felt confident enough with myself to actually go through with it. Of course in my head, I had come up with reasons NOT to do it, but I wanted to prove to myself that I am changing for the better.
Being able to finally step in front of the camera or stopping to look at myself in the mirror is a huge leap forward for me.
I may not like everything that is looking back at me, but at least now I like myself enough to give myself the time of day.
For too long I hid from seeing what I had let myself become.
Now I am learning to embrace my body faults and all.
Yes people call me vain for posting pictures of myself on my website/Twitter/Facebook page.
Full of myself.
Yes people tell me that I have changed and become someone who is full of themselves.
Yes people say they stop following me because I post too many pictures of how I look.
TO those people I say "your loss" - my blog/Facebook page/Twitter account etc are places where I share the highs and lows of weight loss and fitness journey.
IF you think I am vain or boastful, then you really don't read what I write or know me at all.
I am FAR from those things.
I am a girl working to accept my body faults and all.
I am PROUD that I can now take the step from behind the camera to the front of it.
I am HAPPY that by taking the time to look in the mirror I am now acknowledging that I am worthy enough to look at ...