I've been hiding.
I know I've been hiding.
I withdraw when I am starting to spiral internally.
I haven't been posting as much.
I haven't been reaching out to friends as much.
As my confidence has decreased so has my spark.
But I am done letting the inner demons, the depression, the turmoil take over.
I have faced this time and time before and once again I will persevere.
Earlier this week I got so upset and frustrated with myself that i got close to cutting. I could feel the urge to do it overtaking me. But I looked at my wrist. I looked at the old scars. I knew it wouldn't solve anything. Thankfully I held strong and didn't.
But having that urge to harm myself come back snapped me back into reality.
I am not in a good place mentally and I need to get back to doing what keeps me positive, focused and basically HAPPY.
So I promise to myself here on this little piece of the internet that I am back. I am done hiding. I am done NOT writing and sharing. I am done being unhappy.
I am ready to kick ass and get back to being me!