#FaceItFriday: Valuing Myself - Then, Now & In The Future

Happy FRI-YAY my friends!

I didn't think I was mentally going to make it to today. A shortened week always makes for a "fun" time. Am I right? It's not like the needs or work lessens during a short week - you just have less time to get it done. :P 

This week was mentally and emotionally draining. I had a LOT of high anxiety days and times were I just wanted to hide under the covers and pretend the rest of the world didn't exist. Hello depression moments. Unfortunately I had to pull up my big girl pants and try to work through them as best as I could. 

Luckily I have amazing friends and it was great to have them around to refocus my negative energy into positive love!

Last Sunday I ran my 5th Boston's Run To Remember half and on Monday I had 3 of my closest friends from college over for a BBQ. It was just the pick-me-up my soul needed.

Workouts this past week:

Friday - Strength Training class + 1700m swim
Saturday - 45 min Flywheel class
Sunday - Boston's Run To Remember Half
Monday - Rest Day
Tuesday - 1600m swim
Wednesday - Rest Day (dry needling)
Thursday - 45 min Flywheel class

Unfortunately from a food perspective, I was NOT on my A-game. I tried to rally after Memorial Day BBQ, but I had a hard time. I swear I improved each day, but overall I would give myself a C+. I mean at least I tracked it all, but the choices were not my best. Thankfully I was able to rally on Thursday and finally have an on-plan day! Nothing like a weigh-in the next morning to kick things into gear!

I am proud to say I tracked every single bite, lick and taste... yes even well into the negative!

OOF! That number was rough, but I was proud of myself for owning it. 

I had my usual Thursday night of Flywheel with Melinda followed by Sweetgreen for dinner.

I, unfortunately, have had a terrible time trying to sleep this past week. I woke up this morning at 4:15am - an hour before my alarm went off. :( Ugh I need to figure out this lack of sleep as it seriously affects my food choices. 

But I made it to my strength training class before heading to my WW meeting.

I didn't have high hopes for the scale, but I was ready to face the music and start a fresh week.

I repeated my 3 positives:

1) I tracked every single Bite, Lick and Taste even when I went -200+ for the week.
2) I focused on blogging this past week and am actually caught up on my race recaps for 2017!
3) I took time the last few mornings to go buy a Dunkin iced coffee, turn on a podcast and take myself on a nice walk around the river near my house for some "me" time. Ohhh that really helped with my mindset for the rest of the day! I really want to keep that going.

... then stepped on the scale!

DOWN 0.8 lbs! WOAH!

Okay let me quickly get off the scale before the WW gods change their mind. :P

15.2 lbs since Jan 27... 8.4 to go!

Total Lost: 71.6 (54.0 with WW)
Current weight: 163.4
Heaviest (recorded) weight: 235
Weight Watchers Start weight: 217.4
Goal weight: 155
Lowest weight: 150.2

Haha! Do we like how the app reminded me I finally got my act together by Thursday. :)

The topic for this week's meeting was about valuing ourselves.

I've shared many times how self-love is one of my hardest hurdles on this journey. I am my biggest critic and am not as kind to myself as I am to others. I have improved over time, but I still have a lot of work to do.

Focusing on some self-care and "me" time really does pay off. 

But what I need to remember at the heart of it all is loving the "before" me. That person is still a part of me. When I bash that "old" me, I am bashing the me now and the me in the future. 

Whenever I look at my "before" pics, I try to say at least 1 positive thing about that person at that time. Usually it ends up being something that is still true now: kind, empathetic, good friend, caring, etc.

When I was  in junior high, I remember telling my aunt that everything would be fine if I just lost 50 lbs. But that was naive. As I lost the weight as an adult, I realized I was just starting my journey. The issues with myself were still there and now there wasn't anything holding me back. I had to face the hard stuff... and work on loving ME!

One of the activities in the weekly this week is asking yourself what your best friend would say is your best quality. Well I will be texting Sarah to ask but I also pose the question to you all:

What is my best quality?

PS Happy National Donut Day! Yes I couldn't pass it up. I tracked the 11pt glazed donut and it hit the spot this morning! ;)