Face It Friday: 4th Goal-Aversary

Why yes folks it is Sunday again and I am posting my Face It Friday.

There is - yet again - a very good reason why I waited until today.

January 10 has a very special place in my heart.


Because on this day in 2012, I hit GOAL with Weight Watchers!!! (Click on that link to read the original hitting goal post)

I remember being speechless when I stepped on the scale and the receptionist said I had hit goal.

I never thought this day would come.

Now four years later I still can't.

Pictures: 1st Anniversary - 2013, 2nd Anniversary - 2014, 3rd Anniversary - 2015
4th Anniversary - 2016

While I am upset with myself for not being at goal on this anniversary (15 lbs over 155), I am still proud of all of the progress I have made since November 2, 2009 (the day I joined WW).

I have been feeling a bit lost the past 2 weeks. I don't know what happened. I was all motivated and had shed over 8.6 lbs to return to the 160s.

Then "something" happened. I don't want to spew excuses because I know that is all they are. 

But I was feeling emotionally and physically drained around the holidays. 

However this anniversary and seeing my story on Shape Magazine's website have rejuvenated me.

I am PSYCHED to be heading to Disneyland on Thursday. I think the break is exactly what my soul needs.

Again I am upset with myself for being heavier than last year because I felt AWESOME when I was there last year. BUT I know I am still in a much better place.

Because like I said at the end of the article:

It isn't about the pounds lost ... but the life gained!

Guys I am going to Disneyland to complete not 1, not 2, but 3 races. I will tackle a 5k, 10k, and Half Marathon. Totaling 22.4 magical miles in 3 days!

I mean HELLO! That is FREAKIN' awesome. Something I would've NEVER considered doing before Weight Watchers. 

My life - even when feeling low now - is leaps and bounds better than when I was truly at rock bottom. 

I love myself enough now to not think about self-harming myself. I don't think about taking my own life like I did for so many years. 

I have hopes and dreams that I want to achieve and fight for.

All because on November 2, 2009 - I decided I was worth the fight! I am worth the journey. I am worth the ups and downs.

And you are too!

So this anniversary reminds me to keep fighting, to celebrate how far I have come and to remind myself that I will get there again. 

What will you fight for this week?